Just what I expected...

Well there is no good news to even report.  First of all my doctor had no idea why I was there today until  I reminded him that I had cysts the last visit.  I wish I was there for an IUI visit.  After sitting in the room for what seemed like 30 mins (mind you I felt like crud this morning) he finally came back with the ultrasound machine.  Yup, no good news came from this ultrasound.  My cysts have grown instead of disolved or shrank.  I now have a 3 1/2 cm and 3 cm cysts on my right ovary.

I need to stay on birth control for another month and see if it helps at all.  If they have not shrank or dissolved I will be having surgery in either May or June.  I then of course discussed cancer with him.  I asked do you screen for it when you take off the cysts.  He told me yes but I am too young to even have to worry about that.  My next question was well if for some reason it is cancer what will you do?  His response I take everything out and we do further testing.  Then I asked well if you are taking everything out can we save any of my eggs and the answer was no.

I am feeling beyond defeated.  I have been on the verge of tears all day but haven't broken down yet.  I am just at a loss and pretty numb because every visit I get worse and worse news.  I don't know what to think or do any more.


-Kate

Hoping for some good news!

Well it's that time again when I get to go back to the doctor's office.  I will be going in on Wednesday for another ultrasound.  Unfortunately Preston cannot go to this visit either.  Last week he had Lasik eye surgery and has is 1 week follow up appointment at Camp Pendleton (which is 5 hrs away).  I am trying not to be a pessimistic but I am assuming that they cysts have not magically dissolved after one month back on the pill.  I hope to hear at least that they are smaller and no new ones have developed.

Since I last posted we have done the following to make sure we are prepared and ready to go when we get the green light for the IUI process.  I have gotten all of the injections that I will be needing in the next few months.  When I say gotten I mean I picked them up from the pharmacy's not had any injections done.  I am so thankful that I will have LT. McKenna doing my injections for me though when I am ready.

Preston contacted the sperm bank in Fresno to schedule an appointment.  My doctor sort of freaked out when I told him last visit that we had not done that yet.  Come to find out that no appointment is really needed.  He can call up that day and and go in.  Preston also contacted the company we need to order the IUI catheter from.   Again we can't order that right now because it has to be used in a certain amount of days or it will be deemed unusable.

I am ready to be done with the pill.  I have forgotten how much it stunk to remember to take it every day at the same time.  I have also forgotten how much it sucks when you first get on it too!!  Ouch I am always tender!!

Either Wednesday or Thursday I will blog again about what our next step will be.  Keep your fingers crossed that we can finally move on and really try!

-Kate