So I have a few blue days here lately. I still haven't heard back from the doctor we saw almost two weeks ago. I am currently waiting on my referral to go through for this doctor I found online who is within our network. He is everything we need right now. What caught my attention about him was he specializes in uterine surgery. But on top of that he is an OBGYN, reproductive endocrinologist, and fertility specialist. I just hope we can get into see him soon!
My thoughts have been wondering to the thought of giving up. I just so badly want to be done with this journey. People ask me do you think you will have children and depending on my mood it will be a half hearted sure or an "eh". I am a pessimist at heart. It drives Preston nuts that I have that outlook on life. If you can't tell he is an optimist and always has hope for the best. I would rather think the worst and be surprised in the end if something actually went right. So my honest answer to "do you think you will have children" is no. I would love to be wrong and have two or three little ones running around when I read this post years from now but the simple fact is it's easier to think no then to daydream about our future children.
Hopefully the next post I will have a doctors appointment with our potential new doctor.
-Kate
My thoughts have been wondering to the thought of giving up. I just so badly want to be done with this journey. People ask me do you think you will have children and depending on my mood it will be a half hearted sure or an "eh". I am a pessimist at heart. It drives Preston nuts that I have that outlook on life. If you can't tell he is an optimist and always has hope for the best. I would rather think the worst and be surprised in the end if something actually went right. So my honest answer to "do you think you will have children" is no. I would love to be wrong and have two or three little ones running around when I read this post years from now but the simple fact is it's easier to think no then to daydream about our future children.
Hopefully the next post I will have a doctors appointment with our potential new doctor.
-Kate
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